Astral Projection OBE... note to self: don't try to move the physical body

I was walking down a sidewalk and I was approaching someone scary. As I drew closer I became aware of the sound of the shopping cart that they pushed. I did not see the face but I knew it was dark. Right before we passed I felt this chill and the sound the squeaking got way more real than a real cart. I then was out of the dream and out of my body (vibes came with real cart sounds) in total blackness. I wanted to see a demon, I visualized one and I felt fear, I then wanted to see Jefforee and I saw and felt him there, he had no face… he may have, but I just remember him being a visible black manshape on the black background. I then became aware of where I was in the astral. I never opened any eyes this time. I was floating up in the air and I started spinning out of control. I realized that I was in my bed room at my parents place. I didn't catch any details other than the blue and white striped wall paper. I was clenching my physical jaw really hard, so I worked on opening it, and the astral dissolved but I was still floating in my body, kept working on getting my jaw open. I was paralyzed, but at the same time my astral arms are moving which when I "see" them I am back in my parents house in my room. I am standing there, looking around, I want to float, right as I start to, my mind (awakened from moving my jaw) said, no this isn't possible and grounded me. I tried jumping up to the air and commanding that I float, but the jumps were low gravity but I was back on the ground. Then when I jumped again all the gravity was there again and the whole thing sort of fell apart. Fin.

Out of the Body Again (Finally)

04/06/2011 1:06 am
I had another OBE! In this one, I was dreaming for a really short time, it was simply me sliding down this railing in this elegant house, then the rail became endless and the background disappeared. I became lucid and I guess my subconscious messages a couple days earlier had worked because in my lucid state I decided to have a projection and stuck my leg in the vertical slats holding up the railing to cause myself to start spinning on the X axis really fast. I heard loud vibrations and felt a buzzing in my head like there was a school bell ringing in it, I focused to make them stronger and poof the dream disintegrated and I was floating in my astral. I didn't know what to do, my reasoning was asleep, it was as if I was told to open my eyes, presumably by Jefforee, however, I did not think to look for him because I was not thinking. I focused on opening my eyes, but rather, my physical eyes opened. I have yet to figure out how to see without opening those eyes. I bent my arm to take a look at it, it felt weightless, kind of like when your leg is asleep or what ever. With my arm still up in the air, I willed floating self to roll. I rolled towards the wall and soon I passed through it; it made a fffft sound like in stargate when someone would walk through the event horizon. I kept spinning but for some reason my mind started to awaken and I was now "seeing" out of my eyes that were open instead of projecting, and I could now see that I was more getting the vertigo of sponging and not actually spinning… well I was, but the perspective from my physical eyes made things weird. I shut them hard and tried really hard to get vibrations, which I got, only this time they were like 10x stronger than the first time, so loud. This time I did something different, while I was getting vibrations I said "I am outside". I tried to visualize the railing again but it just wasn't coming. I then got the idea to visualize the sound of footsteps on a wooden floor, wood soled shoes, it was SO real I could swear that I was really hearing someone walking down a hallway. Then I was in daylight. There were 5 guys in colorful shirts and guns chasing a guy in a short sleeve red polo shirt. Then there were gunshots, lots of them, I was scarred of a stray bullet hitting me, I felt like I really was at risk of dying! Then I told myself I am projecting bullets cannot kill me. and I looked again. He is running, I think he is white, I thought it was a sidewalk in the city, but now it is the parking lot of the post office. I am then shot back into wakefulness. I was like "OH SHIT! He's dead!" I go to the window and there is no one out there. But it was SO real, there is no way that didn't happen. I then realize I am kicking over stuff in my apartment… I either then woke up from a dream and was on my couch, or I was sleep walking and woke up standing up. I find it wierd that I can't remember because I am now writing this right after I came to. The END! :)

A failed Attempt Due to Fear

Mar 18, 1:55:32
I have been laying there, it was not at all this time when I first started trying to get ready to do an obe. I was startled to awareness by a vibrating, I felt as though my palms were sitting on my laptop and the fan inside the computer was rumbling. the harder I pushed with my palms the stronger the vibrations got. I was so close, I started thinking about OBE's and that I was going to get out of my body again. But I was thinking too hard and they never got to the point of my head feeling like it was being electrocuted. The vibrations then seemed to go away altogether, though before they did they began to faultier, like they would go down and then I would push again and they would come back. Anyways they were gone and I was starting to try to prepare to get back into that frame, then I heard a sound like a door slamming, I am not sure what it was, but it was loud, I started thinking someone came into my apartment, I do not lock the door anymore, I was so terrified by the thought that someone was in my apartment that I opened my eyes (or maybe before that) and I was "proved right" stupid ego, by a bright light like the light in my room was on and I was sure someone was there, then I opened my REAL eyes, lmao and it was dark in my room except the soft blue glow of my clock and the light from the window. Shit shit shit, I almost was there but I ruined it by doubt. Anyways it is a full moon and I read one time that it is not wise to project with a full moon, nor a waning moon, so looks like I have to wait a week or so. I am going to leave my door unlocked during the day, but just so I do not get scared by sounds in the astral in the future, thinking that my physical body may be in danger, I will lock my door at night so that way I am sure no one just WALKED into my apartment, which they could do, RIGHT NOW, if they wanted because the door is unbolted and unlocked. I have to pee, so I am going to lock up and maybe grab something to drink.
This just doesn't feel real 2:07:30. I was just in the bathroom, it is almost too real, too clear, I just don't feel like I am really awake, I think I may be dreaming. I feel the presence of my spirit guides! I am excited and my eyes are tearing up like the first entry in my black book. Everything that happened then, it feels the same. I am reassured that I am awake by the sounds of my never sleeping neighbor upstairs. I think I am feeling my guides now because I actually requested them in the right state of mind about 2 hours or less, 1 hour ago when I was preparing to have an OBE. I was completely paralyzed and I thought perfect, time to "pray" for them. And I did and now I feel him! I am so exited, I am going to talk to him while I sip my water. Cya.

Spirits in the Hypnopompic State

March 10th 2011 at 4:30 am.
I was sleeping when something out of the blue woke me up. I had the urge to look down near my feet which was near my computer. I see a spirit in the doggy position looking at my computer. It was so real that I subconsciously exclaimed "Get away from me!". I was absolutely terrified, though it was so dark the silvery spirit some how made me think of my father. The spirit vanished as quickly as it had came. I am still scarred! It was too real, I have grabbed my protection pentacle and have it against my chest. My body must have just re-entered from the astral state and was still lucid enough in that plane for me to see this spirit. I know it was real, I was not dreaming it, and I have had no black out period since seeing it. I am too scarred now at 4:40 to go back to sleep, so it looks like I will turn on some lights and light a protection candle and be up for the mooning.
Yesterday I had woken up dreaming about me giving my family another chance and I was sure it was a good idea to at least give them the opportunity and I was sure that they were in the end going to be accepting. In the instant moment this morning somehow I was sure of the opposite, and I was sure that I never wanted to contact my father again. It should have been unrelated! Seeing a ghost and then all of a sudden my position on an issue completely flip flopped and I am not on the other side without any real reasoning as to how and why I flipped such a major decision so drastically and seemingly without even thinking about it; Instantaneous.