Mar 18, 1:55:32
I have been laying there, it was not at all this time when I first started trying to get ready to do an obe. I was startled to awareness by a vibrating, I felt as though my palms were sitting on my laptop and the fan inside the computer was rumbling. the harder I pushed with my palms the stronger the vibrations got. I was so close, I started thinking about OBE's and that I was going to get out of my body again. But I was thinking too hard and they never got to the point of my head feeling like it was being electrocuted. The vibrations then seemed to go away altogether, though before they did they began to faultier, like they would go down and then I would push again and they would come back. Anyways they were gone and I was starting to try to prepare to get back into that frame, then I heard a sound like a door slamming, I am not sure what it was, but it was loud, I started thinking someone came into my apartment, I do not lock the door anymore, I was so terrified by the thought that someone was in my apartment that I opened my eyes (or maybe before that) and I was "proved right" stupid ego, by a bright light like the light in my room was on and I was sure someone was there, then I opened my REAL eyes, lmao and it was dark in my room except the soft blue glow of my clock and the light from the window. Shit shit shit, I almost was there but I ruined it by doubt. Anyways it is a full moon and I read one time that it is not wise to project with a full moon, nor a waning moon, so looks like I have to wait a week or so. I am going to leave my door unlocked during the day, but just so I do not get scared by sounds in the astral in the future, thinking that my physical body may be in danger, I will lock my door at night so that way I am sure no one just WALKED into my apartment, which they could do, RIGHT NOW, if they wanted because the door is unbolted and unlocked. I have to pee, so I am going to lock up and maybe grab something to drink.
This just doesn't feel real 2:07:30. I was just in the bathroom, it is almost too real, too clear, I just don't feel like I am really awake, I think I may be dreaming. I feel the presence of my spirit guides! I am excited and my eyes are tearing up like the first entry in my black book. Everything that happened then, it feels the same. I am reassured that I am awake by the sounds of my never sleeping neighbor upstairs. I think I am feeling my guides now because I actually requested them in the right state of mind about 2 hours or less, 1 hour ago when I was preparing to have an OBE. I was completely paralyzed and I thought perfect, time to "pray" for them. And I did and now I feel him! I am so exited, I am going to talk to him while I sip my water. Cya.
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Friday, March 18, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
My first REAL OoBE!
March 16th…
I just had my first OBE, it started as a lucid dream.
I was in the car with mom, and she was at the bottom of our street (heading towards shaftner road) there and she was going 40 plus and there was a car infront of her that was going really slow, she was going to slow down, but I decided to have her speed up. We zoomed around this car like at 50 at the last second with inches to the stop sign at the T intersection and fishtailed the corner only to get sideswiped by another car that was driving along shaftner road. I was thrown out of my body in this. I felt the vibrations, though I didn't see anything, so I tried to visualize a white line, which made the vibrations stronger, the white line started to gain perspective and it laid down, it was 3d and I felt it was a piece of wood, a white 2x4 with the grain and knots just like a real one. It felt like my head was being electrocuted. Then I remember what the books say about seeing and movement. I felt my arm, it was numb like it was floating, my left astral arm was floating in the air and it felt like it was, like nothing was even touching it…. it was suspended on a cloud and it was so comfortable… the feeling manifested as a visualization of a shimmering waving arm floating in the air. I then realized that I was seeing light even though I didn't think my physical eyes were open, but I couldn't really see what it was, I waved my left astral arm around and I think I may have moved my physical arm, but I am not sure. I tried to open my eyes, it seriously isn't bright enough in the room right now for me to have seen what I saw with physical eyes. I did not see myself, rather I felt I was looking at a Television there was something playing on the screen, there was a halo around it and the rest of the room was pitch dark. Perhaps it was a neighbors box based on the direction I am laying down, all there is is my window and a clock. The clock was out of sight range and the window I do not believe has any light coming out of it. I blacked out and came to in a few seconds and was so excited to write in here! OMG it was awesome dude. I was in waking consciousness in that driving dream. I had been dreaming before, it was a dumb dream and I don't remember what it was, but I was in and out of deep unconscious and full consciousness before the driving dream started. This driving dream was at the most 30 seconds long, I mean all we did was zoom around a car and get side swiped by another one, but it was so real feeling that my consciousness got brought into the astral plane. I think I am probably going to go around in another circle if I keep typing, so I am going to try to project again, and get back down into relaxation and shit and see what happens .
the time is 2:54 probably 2:48 or so when I woke up from the OBE.
I just turned off my laptop screen and looked around to see what might have been my physical eyes seeing, but I swear the window looks like an ominous yellowish color, the clock is green and facing away from the pillow, and the other clock is out of sight completely because my blankets are all messy.
I was seeing a television.
I just had my first OBE, it started as a lucid dream.
I was in the car with mom, and she was at the bottom of our street (heading towards shaftner road) there and she was going 40 plus and there was a car infront of her that was going really slow, she was going to slow down, but I decided to have her speed up. We zoomed around this car like at 50 at the last second with inches to the stop sign at the T intersection and fishtailed the corner only to get sideswiped by another car that was driving along shaftner road. I was thrown out of my body in this. I felt the vibrations, though I didn't see anything, so I tried to visualize a white line, which made the vibrations stronger, the white line started to gain perspective and it laid down, it was 3d and I felt it was a piece of wood, a white 2x4 with the grain and knots just like a real one. It felt like my head was being electrocuted. Then I remember what the books say about seeing and movement. I felt my arm, it was numb like it was floating, my left astral arm was floating in the air and it felt like it was, like nothing was even touching it…. it was suspended on a cloud and it was so comfortable… the feeling manifested as a visualization of a shimmering waving arm floating in the air. I then realized that I was seeing light even though I didn't think my physical eyes were open, but I couldn't really see what it was, I waved my left astral arm around and I think I may have moved my physical arm, but I am not sure. I tried to open my eyes, it seriously isn't bright enough in the room right now for me to have seen what I saw with physical eyes. I did not see myself, rather I felt I was looking at a Television there was something playing on the screen, there was a halo around it and the rest of the room was pitch dark. Perhaps it was a neighbors box based on the direction I am laying down, all there is is my window and a clock. The clock was out of sight range and the window I do not believe has any light coming out of it. I blacked out and came to in a few seconds and was so excited to write in here! OMG it was awesome dude. I was in waking consciousness in that driving dream. I had been dreaming before, it was a dumb dream and I don't remember what it was, but I was in and out of deep unconscious and full consciousness before the driving dream started. This driving dream was at the most 30 seconds long, I mean all we did was zoom around a car and get side swiped by another one, but it was so real feeling that my consciousness got brought into the astral plane. I think I am probably going to go around in another circle if I keep typing, so I am going to try to project again, and get back down into relaxation and shit and see what happens .
the time is 2:54 probably 2:48 or so when I woke up from the OBE.
I just turned off my laptop screen and looked around to see what might have been my physical eyes seeing, but I swear the window looks like an ominous yellowish color, the clock is green and facing away from the pillow, and the other clock is out of sight completely because my blankets are all messy.
I was seeing a television.
Friday, March 4, 2011
My First Glimpse
3/04/2011 8pm-1am
I started exploration into OBE. My first experience was bone chilling. I realized that it was completely possible for me to do this, and I had a number of strange unexplainable happenings occur to me during this time. I had in the past month started reading a book that I had gotten on astral projection, however its method and explanation left me feeling like my creativity and imagination was subprime and that it was not capable of visual creation. I however have been sure that I can imagine sounds and music and can remember a small 15 second or so segment of a favorite song and be able to "hear" all the different parts and harmonies in it. I can play it over and over and then blend it into another segment later on. I am sure after doing it of course that I am not really hearing it but rather imagining it, but it is so absolutely close to what the song or sound actually is that when I play the song back I know what would happen next in every instrument or vocal line.
My experience started with me laying in natures clothing on my back with two candles being the only light in the room and some soft relaxing music playing. As I lay there, I thought about how my body was just a bottle for my astral self and started trying to think about vibrations. My eyes started crying and I got huge chills (vibrations) all over my body and it felt like I was being ripped from my body. I was not on the edge of sleep and I was in full waking consciousness. I saw a blue flame that floated around my "visual field" even though my eyes were closed. I reached for this flame and my body felt even more disconnected. I started to become scared and stopped and sat up. I then read on in the book and it said stuff about imagining that you were ripped from your body and then looking at yourself. I thought about it and then my eyes started crying really bad this time and I got another huge chill run through my body. And I was sure that this didn't really happen but it felt so real, but I saw myself stand up and I looked up and saw me, clothed in what I had been wearing earlier looking down at me saying "Christina!" I was terrified, this was so real and it scared me so much that once again I stopped and went back to sitting there.
I read on and did more of the exercises, but nothing new developed.
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